Hey.

It wasn't an easy nor was it a difficult journey to be where I am right now.

Its hard to be so impatient and at the same time, deal with people that I can never get along with. Its hard to withstand long hours with them when all I want is to just ask them to shut up but at the same time keep talking. It seems like most people I do not have a personal liking towards, seem to have nice thoughts inside them. Its like I want to like them but at the same time dislike him. I wouldn't use 'hate' on them because I really do not mind talking to them when I really need to hear their opinions on things. So overall, I'm fine with them.

But it's just that sometimes I want all of these people gone. I want all of these people to stop talking and get away from my life. I want all of these people to shut the hell up, pack up and say goodbye to me. I want all of these people to just disappear from my life. But at the same time, I wish for their happiness. I wish they will succeed in life and I want to be there to witness all of their moments. I want to be there to see them smiling and laughing with their friends and smile knowing that they are happy. I want to be there knowing that even though I did nothing but watch them from afar, they are alright. That they are having the best time of their lives.

It's just that I want the best for both my enemies and my friends. And it sucks that my enemies will never know that. They will never know that deep inside, I'm always praying. Always praying for their safety. For their happiness.

But it's okay.

Till next time, assalamualaikum.