Times like this, I wish I can just sleep all day until everything is back to normal. I wish I can just stop time and cry all day without caring if people would see me. I wish I can just go to someone and confide in them and just let everything out to them. It just sucks that I have to do this alone, that I have to handle this alone. That I am always the one hurting people.

It sucks that I'm always the bad person. The bad person in the relationship. The bad person in the family. The bad person in a group of friends. I mean, when will I ever be good enough for everyone or someone. It hurts so badly that I wish I can erase all this emotions away. Because I do not want to handle all of this anymore. I do not want to think about all of this anymore. I do not want to go through all of this anymore. I just wanted life to be as simple as it is. I just wanted my life to be as quiet as it is. I just wanted life to be peaceful and not full of dramas. But I guess I can't have that.

The next thing yknow, people are leaving me. Slowly one by one. People are letting me go. People are drifting away from me. People are just not communicating with me anymore. Where did I go wrong as a friend? Did I disturb you too much? Was I not there for you? Was I rude to you? Was I pissing you off with my attitude? Did I hurt your feelings? Did I make you feel very unhappy? I mean, idk. Everyday I keep this guilt inside of me. Because it sucks that I wouldn't know what I did wrong. It sucks to always think about what I did to them that made them think I'm inadequate as a friend.

It honestly sucks to be feeling this down for the past few weeks. I just wish someone could just take my soul away.

Goodbye.